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  • Government Name: Tewhan Butler
  • Register Number: 26852-050
  • Age:34
  • Time Served:11 years
  • Home Town:East Orange, NJ
  • Sentence:30 yrs.
  • Current Charge:RICO
  • Alias:Massacre
  • Release Date:2029
  • Prison Affiliation:Blood (Double ii/QSBG)
  • Circle of Influence:Altariq Gumbs, Emmanuel Jones, Lester Alford, Marco Miguel Robertson, Pele Brown, David Drone, Jermaine Ray, Marcus Martin, Michael Simpson, Omar Austin, Quaheem Edwards, Torvos Simpson, Vincent Gamboa
  • Institution:USP McCreary
  • Here, my life behind bars offers understanding for those of you who venture into ‘the life’ with no understanding of its consequences: the adversity, the obstacles and the journey one must travel alone when the gavel is slammed, your cell is locked and the lights go out.

Tears Shed

Last night I cried for the very first time in years. For almost forever I have been out of touch with any form of emotion. An embodied pain was pushing me to a place I had never before journeyed to. I would focus on anything other than the days gone by in order to escape the wrath of past realities. Be that as it may, my last night coerced me into slipping. Now, internally, I am stifled.

I grab hold of distant memories and lose another part of myself with each tear shed. I shield what breathes within, so no one else could hear. The containment of struggles, which pain a man who has been rewarded with a near-death sentence. Still, the deeds of darkness could not be put aside so they haunt my everything. For only the moment in which I’ve lived for is what constitutes the anguish that has brought tears to my eyes. My mind has been in distress, playing tricks and leading to madness.

KARMA! A reaping of what I have sown. So deserving of much more than tears. I attempt to picture the pains I have inflicted. Apologies hold little to no value, so I speak of none. Yet, I feel.


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