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  • Kormányzati név: Kenneth Key
  • Nyilvántartási szám: A70562
  • Életkor:57
  • Idő szolgált:33 év
  • Home Town:Chicago, IL
  • Mondat:888 év (Természetes Élet)
  • Aktuális töltési:Armed Robbery, Emberrablás
  • Álnév:Blue & amp; Ananyah Ben Yisrael
  • Release Date:N / A
  • Prison Munkahely:N / A
  • Circle of Influence:Jamel Miller
  • Intézmény:Stateville Büntetésvégrehajtási Center
  • You will rise in direct proportion to the decrease in your negative thoughts, words and actions

Doing életét börtönben: Mi lesz a Legacy?

I wake each morning to the profound reality of doing LIFE in prison. Jelenleg, having served over 34 years of my life in prison, guilty or innocent, this is not what I or any man was created for. But here I am in a box, caged like an animal, and often, as the tours come through, I am looked upon as such. Igen, a man, human no less, but looked at as other than and treated inhumanely; the wretch of the earth.

I have a friend who wrote a book titled A Costly American Hatred. His name is Joseph Dole. In the foreword of the book he states at one time lepers were segregated from society and exiled for life to leper colonies. These types of leper colonies are mostly a thing of the past, but a new type of leper and leper colony has taken their place in America. People who commit crimes are now the new leper. The new leper colonies are prisons, which have sprung up across our nation like Starbucks.

Doing LIFE in prison is not easy. Of course one has to adjust and continue to adjust as the hours, nap, hónapokban, and years go by. And as life, your life, my life, plays out, one has to remain hopeful. I first entered prison without a care. I still had a woman and family, but in a span of a few years they were gone. The losses were unimaginable. I spoke to my mother on the phone weekly and got an occasional visit, but life as I knew had changed the moment the Judge found me guilty. When you enter the belly of the beast, if you decide F*(! it, trust, your life will change too. That’s a fact.

I had no heart when I first entered prison. I was as cold as the steel that confined me. I often applauded the misfortune of others that played out on the news and before my eyes. Sometimes, I played a part in the demise. I was a young son with an estranged woman, who became hooked on drugs, and a mother trying to be the conduit of help and good grandmother and a parent to me. I was doing time, Kezdte dörömböl, getting high, and doing much of what I was doing on the street. I was numb to the time I had to do. I had yet to realize that I was doing the best I could to escape reality.

Each year the time gets harder and harder as the prison industry dries up. The prisoncrats took back their prisons and commerce dried up as well. As an artist, the end of arts and craft shows and us being allowed to sell our art to officers and visitors was a game-changer. I went from earning a few hundred dollars each month to depending on a State stipend of $10.00, and trust me that does not go a long way in prison.

Jelenleg, I sit here in prison with no family. My mother is still alive, and I have one brother, but there is no communication. I am dead to them. I had a woman who for the last twenty years has been the rock in my life. She has helped me weather many of storms, but at 68 years-old, time has crippled her in many, many ways. This is the profound effect of doing LIFE in prison. Time waits for no one.

I have aged too. I’m blessed to have my son here with me in prison, but it’s certainly not where I want him to be. As an elder, our relationship affords me a bit of comfort many my age do not have here in prison. LIFE has taken a toll on my body but not my spirit. I hold on to remény és dream of being free! But I also face the awesome reality that I may die in prison. That’s real and something I think about often.

I often ask myself, what will my legacy be? Up until the point when I changed my life, I was en route to further failure and the banner of having been born and died and absolutely nothing else. It’s my hope, my fervent prayer, that my legacy will be that of a man who helped shape the futures of young men who came through this penal institution, especially those now in the free world, and helped them to change their life for the better. And that I have given them some hope, some insight into making better decisions.

As to my son, I am honored to show him the other man, not the gang-banging, ice-cold, uncaring man who caused harm and damage to men, women and community, but a visible man of YAH (Isten). A man who shows and teaches the lessons of love, respect and compassion. To show how important it is to extend our hands to our elders. A man who has always extended his hand to the many sons I have adopted during my journey in prison.

I want my legacy to be that I was a man of YAH who with each new breath of life represented the banner of my name – Ananyah – and has covered or is the covering of YAH. I would like my legacy to be that I was truly my brother’s keeper. I want my legacy to be that my writings here on Live from Lockdown have provided a teachable moment, a vision, and led readers to see, know and hear the truth of my words.

I want you to think of your favorite part of the day, when everything else just stops. Taking your children to the park. The warm embrace of a loved one. Waking to the one you love. Or just a simple cone of ice cream. Your favorite home-cooked meal. Or just a nice refreshing shower. Jelenleg, imagine that moment to be gone forever. That is doing LIFE in prison, my friend.

A sentence of LIFE without the possibility of parole is a death sentence. Worse, it’s a long, slow, dissipating death sentence without the any of the legal or administrative safeguards rightly awarded to those condemned to the traditional form of execution. LIFE in prison is indeed the other death penalty. It exposes our society’s concealed belief that redemption and personal transformation are not possible, thus no one is vested in us except for the monetary value our incarceration provides.

You have the ability to chart a new course and avoid sitting in one of the many cells available in the U.S. penal system like I am. Stop thinking you can outsmart law enforcement whose job it is to find and catch you, arrest you and convict you. To be 23 years-old and sentenced to 60 év, whether you serve it all or a percentage, you have set yourself up for a downward spiral.

Part of the ongoing Messages series.

Brother Betts az 37 years-old and has served 16 years in prison. Regrets: Being in prison and abandoning his responsibilities; leaving family mentally and emotionally distraught, along with his children that are now without a father; not living up to his God-given potential. Message: Life is a gift, not a right. With each decision comes a bigger choice. Why glorify self-destruction? Promote conscious behavior that leads to an arena of opportunity. Understand love is more than a thought and requires sacrifice of ego, pride and arrogance.

Brother Parham-Bey az 39 years-old and has served 17 years in prison. Regrets: Not being a better decision maker; not exercising his inner-strength to the best of his ability. Message: Take time to think things through before you act on them.

Bruh Wingate az 54 years-old, serving a mandatory 50-years sentence, and has already served 10 years in prison. Biggest Regret: Drugs that started his life on the wrong and rough path. Message: Avoid any criminal activity that could possibly place you in confinement; find something productive to do that you like and enjoy life.

It’s my fervent prayer that YAH blesses you, keeps you safe, and allows you to see the evidence that there is something better for you to do and that your life has other purpose(s) than what you are doing now.

My question to you: What will be your legacy?


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